Wachuma Reflections

The first time I sat with grandfather-Wachuma I had no expectations. I share this first experience because it was most important in my journey. It inspired me deeply to use Wachuma as one of my teacher plants.

I had an immediate resistance as I held the bowl to my mouth. Then I remembered, I had to let go or I’d never grow. After all, it’s my purpose. Soon after sitting and listening for what seemed like hours to medicine-music, I felt blissful. I had a sensation of all loving and a connection to everything. That was only the beginning. What soon followed was what I’d describe as chaotic-breakdown, cracking me wide open. I tried to purge but I felt something deep within me resisting. I paced back and forth. I was on all fours struggling to let go. I was anxious I just wanted to move past blockage. As I gradually purged then I went through deep intense emotions. I went from bliss to grief then to anger crying and screaming. ! Then I heard the Medicine say, ” This is what it’s all about. Why you’re here. ” He was right! I was stuck in ego. I wore a label of healer and all-knowing but during my sitting I discovered, I needed so much healing. I had forgotten to take care of me! I was in deep pain. I started to reflect of all shadows of my life. I even started to crave foods that, as a vegan, I no longer allowed myself to enjoy. I was out of balance. By holding too tight to things that barely served me. I was not growing. This was deep transformation. It reminded me that nutrition though important, but emotional healing was so much more. Reflecting, and taking my first sitting with Wachuma ( grandfather ) I can definitely say it’s just as important as yage/ayahuasca ( grandmother ) and other teachers. I am grateful, Today plants continue to teach and inspire my path.